i’m not running anymore

step by step
we match each other’s stride
there will be no chasing here
i’ve done all my running
and my legs are tired

i collapsed into your arms
your bed
your heart
and you let me
you held me
when i fell apart

there’s never been a “will they won’t they?”
it’s always been a “yes”
no mirrors or smoke
or jumping through hoops
just
my safety net

in the storms of all my heartbreaks
in my cloudy sky
you’re blue
it’s not what i was running from
but you
i was running to.

comfort in the clouds

I take comfort in the clouds
they can be thunderous and torrential, fuming, screaming through the trees

and fickle

bursts of bright blue, the wind drops,
the skies paint watercolours with the remnants of the tempest

i’ve felt like those skies today
the ones outside my window
rain followed by birdsong
thunder by calm
gales by whispering leaves

a dear friend once reminded me
there is always blue above the clouds
no matter how grey
how ominous
how oppressive
it must end
there must be clear skies somewhere
if not just now

but i like storms
i think it’s in my nature

i like to feel the sky darken
hear the pressure drop and the air shift
to witness nature loosen its reins
branches whip
rivers burst
the skies cry

blue skies may be lovely
but storms make beautiful sunsets